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And I told my self it wouldn't happen again.... Phoenix 2006 Oct 17 03:07 AM

Hello my name is Olivia and I have been exploring this forum for the past fourty-five minutes, and I think it is great to see so many people talking about their LDR's...
I met my boyfriend about five years ago when I got my first job at Burger King and I had a crush on him. I was only fourteen then, and Ihadn't had a boyfriend, or much interaction with males outside of the family before that, but as we talked we became good friends. After a very long time and some feelings of devastation (which converts into a long story) we finally got together.
Ever since then I have known that there is no-one else I want, and I don't even need to try a relationship with some-one else, I have no desire to. Our entire relationship has been great. We have never argued for longer than an hour and even so, it has only happened once or twice. He treats me with such respect and I love him for it.
About half-way through our second year of going out he broke the news to me that he was going to move to Western Australia for about a year(I live in sydney, NSW) and as you can imagive i was heart broken. The past five years of my life had been so turbulent (parents separating, eventually divorcing, trouble with friends, the pressures of the last two years of high school) and through it all he had been the only stable part of my life. So to learn that the stability and peace I had found with him would be disrupted I was distraught. Time went on and he kept planning for his trip over and I kept trying to imagine how hard it would be to be away from him so that when it happened it wouldn't hurt so much.
I was very very wrong. The day that he left was the worst day of my life, it excelled far past the day where I learnt my parents were going to separate, and the months where I had to cope with the way my father and his new girlfriend were treating me.
On the day he left I was at home, on my own (I live with my mother and brother). I only got about two hours of sleep the night before because we spent that time with each other and I was so tired, but I couldn't sleep. All day I cried, I screamed and I threw things around my room. For the first month I slowly learnt to cope with things, but when I talked to him over the phone and through e-mails and had to hear about the tough time he was having getting a job and what not it made it worse. It got to the point where I couldn't eat or sleep, and I felt sick at the faintest thing. That went on for two weeks before he decided that there was no point him staying in WA because there weren't any jobs available.
So he came back and after about two hours things were back to normal.
The reason he had to move to the other side of the country was because he is a pilot. He wants to join the airlines eventually, but to get there he needs to get hours, and to get hours he needs to get a small job and seeing as there arent any in sydney, he had to move away. I wanted to go with him, but I was accepted into a university course that I had worked hard for for two years to get into and I didn;t think my mum would let me move away. When he came back (and for some of the time he was away) we decided that I would go with him next time, and take a year of uni, because I wanted to spend the time with him and take a break from studying.
As I have learnt over the past five years life has a way of changing things. He got a call from a freind/pilot in the Nothern Territory and as things worked out he now has a job to go to up there.
We were both meant to be leaving for the NT or WA in February 07, but now he has to leave in about two weeks. So, with the way things are going it looks as though we are going to have to be apart for six months (there arent any jobs for me in NT, and the people he is working for don't think that there will be any room for me to stay with them).
So no I am trying to prepare myself to go through it all again. I know this time it will be different because he will have a job and he wont be so miserable up there... But I am going to miss him like all hell. The are he is going to doesn't have mobile phone coverage, nor does it have the internet, so we are going to have to rely on phone calls (if the people he works for allows him to recieve/make them) and snail mail.
For the next five months I have a break of uni and nothing to do, so i am trying to think of things that will keep my mind occupied.
I have decided that we will record viceo messages by webcam and put them on a usb drive and exchange them every two weeks to we can still see each other in a very interesting use of the word, and I plan to exchange a piece of clothing with him once a month for when times get tough (he smells amazing, and when we were apart last time smelling his shirt reminded me of why I was going through the pain).
I know things will be tough this time because we will be able to communicate less, but now I am pretty sure (nothing is ever certain) that I will see him in six months time, and if luck permits, I may be able to visit him some time during those six month (though it is unlikely).
I guess that I will just have to rise from the ashes (so to say) of what we had to create a stonger and better relationship, and I know it will work out because we are so commited to each other and trust each other to the ends of the Earth.
If anyone has any advice to give or just anything to say please feel free, I would really appreciate it.
And to everyone else who is in a LDR congrats, and stay strong... and even though the light at the end of the tunnel seems as though it is a million light years away keep trying.
Love,
Olivia