Long Distance Relationships - Love, Advice, Quotes, Tips, Ideas

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Understand it and give me a good suggestion!! missy 2006 Jun 21 11:16 PM

Its a nightmare for me.

we are in relationship since last 4months. I am working in outsorcing company, which is US based but its back office is located in India. We are dealing with computer hardware parts. He's our old customer who often places order with us. We get in touch with each other through a fight over the phone regarding his order. We appreciated each others arrogancy, atittude, strong will power, experience and lots more. Our conversation increased day by day by emails and calls. I shared my personal feelings, about my family with him. We realized that something unseen is happening between us but no one took the initiative to share that feeling. But I took that oppurtunity and wrote in email about my strong feeling for him, he then confessed his feeling for me too. I never had such relationship before, I never wished to fall in love coz i know love brings tears, fear of losing, depression and i use to run away from love. Guys approaches me but i rejected them all. Still from inner i wished to be loved by someone caressed by someone, but i wished to be a special person for someone. I was waiting for a right kind of person, and he have all that quality which i require, matured person, understanding, lovable, passionable, intelligent, I am in love with black American who is in Oakhlohoma. He's 50+ and I am in early 20. From the teenagehood itself i appreciated aged guys. the reason i think old guys have understanding capacity, experienced in all ways, respect younger person in their life. He doenst require to love me coz he have good and undersatnding wife who stood with him in all his ups n downs, a 12 yr old daughter and 21yr old son. But he have all the quality and loving heart for which i m looking for. He's ready to fulfill my dream of a family with him, he wants to share his blood with me. He's madly in lvoe with me but my way of expressing lvoe is different and he have different way, well the things went on. I told him truth but except one that i m not in US. I lied him tht I am CA where our company is located, we cannot reveal such informtion to third party, to hide this truth i lied him over n over. He wants to meet me and want to spend time with me but as i know it is not pssible i said tht i have a busy schedule for weekend. This is the one sitution he got depressed and hurted. One day i made my mind and tell him truth and thereafter sky fall on me. He lost complete trust on me, he hold back his strong love back off me. But he never understood that it was my limitation and circumstances that i couldnt tellhim all truth. But now wehn i say anything to him he suspects me. He honestly said to me that he's not lvoing the way he use to lvoe me before. His honesty hurted me. Now we are not talking since last 2days he bluntly said not to talk to him for one week, i accepted that. I want to get my love back. please suggest me what to do. I dont wnat to loose a true, mature love.Help me