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i miss him so much... it hurts Anubhuti 2005 Oct 31 06:00 PM

I am 25 yrs old.. i and my bf know each other for ages. he is my cousin brother's best friend. i live with my parents. In India unless u get married u usually live with ur folks. In July my father changed his job and is now posted in Trinidad and Tobago. My bf is in India. Half the earth away from me. i haven't seen him since 18th Aug 2005... we sometimes talk on the phone but not every day... sometimes our conversations are once in a week. He has changed his job also and thus stays busy during the week... sometimes if we r lucky we get to say "hi" on the chat.

we started our relationship in July 2005... thus our relationship is really new but coz we've known each other for almost 10 yrs it feels we've alwasy been together... the only time when i will get to meet him now is either in March 2006 when i go back to India for a conference or when we get married. our wedding is being decided by our parents and doesn't seem to be in the first half of 2006.

i have tried my best... to stay happy to not put pressure on him.. to not be difficult... but sometimes it gets beyond any human control.. it's been 3 long months since i was with him... sometimes it feels that i am the only one who is hurting... but sometimes he tells me that he thinks of me all the time, that he misses me.. and hi swords act like a balm on my wounds.. sometimes it gets so dfficult to take one more step... all i want to do is pack my bags and go back...

i have tried to stay busy, to stay happy but sometimes it just doesn't happen... it's so frustrating that i can tear a pillow.. does it even get easier? or less painful??? today is Diwali - a very imp festival in India alike Christmas and i am 24 hrs flying time away from him.. din;t even get to say hi... wishing him fr Diwali is another story altogether...